I can do this. I can do this.

So last week  I was feeling good. I had just ran for 20 minutes straight for the first time in forever and was feeling confident. Well the next three workouts after that were not easy. I didn’t stop. I did each workout, but it wasn’t without struggle. I found that the negative self talk was louder than ever. Can anyone else relate to this idea of having an amazing workout and then struggling the next few?

Anyway this experience just reaffirms that this process is one of struggle and constant self-evaluation. It isn’t easy, but I know that it will be worth it. I just have to keep pushing and keep shutting out that negative voice. On Wednesday we will be doing the last workout in week 6 of Couch-to-5k. And at this point we will be running with no walking in between. 25 minutes of walking the next three workouts and then 30 minutes! We are so close to being done and I know I just keep getting stronger.
We have registered for our first 5k on October 11th. I am terrified, but I know we can do it! And it’s a glow run so that is fun!

Now to inspire myself these are going to be my running mantras this week! 25 minutes here we come! I am gonna kick your ass! If you see me in Forest Park cheer me on:)


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1.8 miles down, 1.2 to go!

So as you know, yesterday I was slightly terrified about having to run for 20 minutes straight, but you know what? I did it! And the best part was it was so much easier than I thought it would be! I finally feel like for the first time since embarking on this journey 5 weeks ago,  I am actually starting to enjoy running. I can’t believe I just said that, but it is true! I feel like from this point forward I have no where to go but up and that 3 miles no longer scares me. I can’t wait to hit that mark and then keep moving forward. 

Throughout my life for some reason or another I never thought I could run long distances. I sprinted in volleyball practice and was athletic throughout my childhood, but the thought of running miles at a time just seemed impossible. Then I was in a head on car accident in 2008 and broke my femur. After that  I really never thought I could run. I am finding through each and every work out that all of my prior thinking is wrong and the only thing it did was hold me back. Now when I run I remind myself that I can do it instead of telling myself that I can’t. I have no reason that I cannot accomplish my goals. I mean contestants on the Biggest Loser run marathons by the end sometimes. So there is no reason I or anyone else out there can’t do what we set our minds to whether that be running or something else. 

Here we are (well our feet are) after accomplishing our run yesterday at the beautiful Forest Park:



So far I am almost 10 pounds down in one month so I can’t complain! I always have to remind myself to take it one day at a time. My competitive nature tells me otherwise, but I can’t be anything but proud of myself at this point. Progress is progress. Obviously today I am on a high and know there are ups and downs to this experience. But today I will enjoy my happiness.