I can do this. I can do this.

So last week  I was feeling good. I had just ran for 20 minutes straight for the first time in forever and was feeling confident. Well the next three workouts after that were not easy. I didn’t stop. I did each workout, but it wasn’t without struggle. I found that the negative self talk was louder than ever. Can anyone else relate to this idea of having an amazing workout and then struggling the next few?

Anyway this experience just reaffirms that this process is one of struggle and constant self-evaluation. It isn’t easy, but I know that it will be worth it. I just have to keep pushing and keep shutting out that negative voice. On Wednesday we will be doing the last workout in week 6 of Couch-to-5k. And at this point we will be running with no walking in between. 25 minutes of walking the next three workouts and then 30 minutes! We are so close to being done and I know I just keep getting stronger.
We have registered for our first 5k on October 11th. I am terrified, but I know we can do it! And it’s a glow run so that is fun!

Now to inspire myself these are going to be my running mantras this week! 25 minutes here we come! I am gonna kick your ass! If you see me in Forest Park cheer me on:)

 

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1.8 miles down, 1.2 to go!

So as you know, yesterday I was slightly terrified about having to run for 20 minutes straight, but you know what? I did it! And the best part was it was so much easier than I thought it would be! I finally feel like for the first time since embarking on this journey 5 weeks ago,  I am actually starting to enjoy running. I can’t believe I just said that, but it is true! I feel like from this point forward I have no where to go but up and that 3 miles no longer scares me. I can’t wait to hit that mark and then keep moving forward. 

Throughout my life for some reason or another I never thought I could run long distances. I sprinted in volleyball practice and was athletic throughout my childhood, but the thought of running miles at a time just seemed impossible. Then I was in a head on car accident in 2008 and broke my femur. After that  I really never thought I could run. I am finding through each and every work out that all of my prior thinking is wrong and the only thing it did was hold me back. Now when I run I remind myself that I can do it instead of telling myself that I can’t. I have no reason that I cannot accomplish my goals. I mean contestants on the Biggest Loser run marathons by the end sometimes. So there is no reason I or anyone else out there can’t do what we set our minds to whether that be running or something else. 

Here we are (well our feet are) after accomplishing our run yesterday at the beautiful Forest Park:

 

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So far I am almost 10 pounds down in one month so I can’t complain! I always have to remind myself to take it one day at a time. My competitive nature tells me otherwise, but I can’t be anything but proud of myself at this point. Progress is progress. Obviously today I am on a high and know there are ups and downs to this experience. But today I will enjoy my happiness. 

 

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Overcoming the Mental Blocks of Running and Fitness

Hope everyone had a happy weekend. Now back to the grind! Over the weekend on Saturday we completed workout two in week 5 of Couch-to-5K. The workout was 5 min warm up–8 min run—5 min walk–8 min run–5 min cool down. 

Let me just say this.  If you would have told me 5 weeks ago that I could run 8 minutes without stopping and let alone do it twice in one workout I wouldn’t have believed you. I don’t know if I would have believed you if you told me that last week. 

Which brings me to my main point, the most difficult part for me in this journey so far is the mental aspect of running and of trying to live a healthier lifestyle. I find myself fighting an inner battle on almost every run. I suppose part of that is because I am still training my body to run and every work out is something new and building more insurance.  But there is also a part in there telling me I can’t do it. I never thought I could be a runner. I thought I could work out and be athletic in many other ways, but not running. So every day is a new opportunity to prove myself wrong and challenge myself.

I find that each time it is a little easier to block out the negative thoughts and become in tune with my body, but it is a process indeed. It is amazing all the negative things we tell ourselves. I consider myself to be a very confident person, but I am finding through this journey that I have too much negative self-talk when it comes to workout out and losing weight at this point in my life. Which is silly! I am young and have a strong and capable mind and body. I just have to tell that negative bitch in my head to shut up and prove her wrong. Slowly but surely this is happening. Any tips from long time runners on this issue would be helpful!

Today we are doing the last workout in week 5 which is running for 20 minutes. I am slightly terrified. I know my body can do it I just have to tell my mind that. Updates to follow:) WIsh me luck! In the mean time I will try and remember this: 

 

Don't Give Up!

 

I wanted to share this recipe for Harvest Chicken Salad from The Nature Box that has become a staple in our home during the last month. I love how you can take most things and make a healthy version. So many small changes that can make all the difference. 

 

Ingredients:

  • 1 pound cooked chicken breast (chopped, diced, or shredded)
  • 1/2 cup diced red onion
  • 1/2 cup diced apple
  • 2/3 cup grapes, halved
  • 1/3 cup NatureBox Dried Cranberries or Zingy Currants
  • 1/4 cup sliced almonds
  • 1/2 cup Greek yogurt
  • 1-1/2 tablespoons freshly squeezed lemon juice
  • 1/2 teaspoon garlic powder
  • Kosher salt
  • Freshly ground black pepper
  • Ciabatta bread, toasted, for serving
Directions:
 
1. In a large bowl, combine chicken, red onion, apple, grapes, dried cranberries or currants, sliced almonds, Greek yogurt, lemon juice, garlic powder, salt and pepper, to taste. Serve sandwiches on ciabatta bread with chicken salad mixture.
 
 
*I cook my chicken in the crock pot because it makes it so juicy and easy to shred, plus it’s super easy! I also like to use the Hungry Girl flatbread because it’s only 100 calories and delicious.
 
 
Any words of advice for me before the big run today and/or any typically unhealthy recipes that you make healthy with a few simple changes? 
 
 
 
 

The Beginning

My name is Stevi.  I am 25 years old. I am a wife, sister, daughter, granddaughter, niece, and friend. I am a social worker with a Master’s degree. I enjoy reading, movies, exploring new restaurants, hanging out with friends, talking, and the list goes on. I also happen to be overweight. I have been overweight most of my life and it is also a part of my identity. This is my journey to change that.

First off, let me say that although the weight loss may be the focus of this blog, the importance for me is not so much the weight as it is my health. I want to live a long and healthy life. I want to have children someday and be able to do all the things with them that I can and not have my physical limits defined by my weight. I love myself and I love my body. I want my outside to reflect how I feel inside. I want to achieve and surpass my goals and overcome mental roadblocks I have set for myself along the way. I do not buy into the mass media idea that skinny=happy or skinny=better. Everyone is different and all of our bodies are beautiful. For me, this is not about being skinny it is about being healthy. I love my curves and I hope throughout this journey they are still there, just more defined and lovely. I do not expect to look like anyone else, but me.

3.5 weeks ago, my husband and I started the 8 week Couch-to-5k running program and tracking our food on My Fitness Pal. Let me just say that I have never been a runner. I played volleyball in high school and could do that all day long, but when we had to run, I hated it. So for me, running=punishment. And as many of you know, running is in huge part mental. During this first few weeks I have learned a few things:

  1. My running form is terrible and I need to work on that
  2. I can and have run for 5 minutes without stopping 2 times in one workout
  3. Running outside isn’t so bad, people don’t really care to stare at you and if they do you will pass them anyway so who cares
  4. Two sports bras are better than one
  5. I might actually begin enjoying this….maybe
  6. It may sound cliche, but you really have to take it one day at a time

I thought this forum would be a good way for me to track my progress and help hold me accountable. Let me just say, that if 4.5 weeks from now I can run 3 miles without stopping I will be screaming from the mountaintop because that will be a huge damn deal for me. Especially seeing as I broke my femur 5 years ago. But, more on that later…

Until then, workout 3 in the 4th week of Couch-to-5k takes place tomorrow. If you haven’t heard of the plan or want to check it out go to:

 

And lastly an inspirational quote because I’m sometimes corny like that.

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I will post more about my eating healthy progress later this week and would love any ideas of things that have worked for you or those close to you. Also any running tips from runners out there?